God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!

**Eileen Elias Freeman**

It was a gorgeous day today--the sun was shining and it was warm outside, certainly not a typical Kansas November day by any means (sorry Diana)!! I was SOO excited to see Lauren this morning--she was in KC for another funeral and came to see me this morning--I needed some Lauren time today!! I was very teary all day today, but the sunshine was healing. I realized today that a lot of firsts have happened in my life this week: the first time I watched someone struggling to die, the first time I lost a close Sister, and soon will be my first Mount funeral---a lot of scary firsts I must admit. I went on through today going through the motions, but not really focusing on much of anything. Vicki and I went to prayer partners tonight--the opening song couldn't have been more perfect It spoke of Peace and Love, being with us, in us, around us, and under our feet---it was certainly to remind us all of Julia. I was driving in my car today feeling impatient with the driver in front of me who was going ever so slowly---then I heard this little voice in my head "live in the pause, Jen" and so I relaxed and enjoyed it. Julia always told me to live in the "pauses" the moments when the light is red when you're in a hurry, or someone in front is going to slow or something has happened to slow you down on your mission---she told me they were always reminders to "slow down" and life is too precious to race through--so she said to live in the pauses---so I gratefully accepted that little reminder today. Nothing like knowing a nun is watching your every move now (smile). Thank goodness she like mischief, so I can still create some! (smile) Tomorrow the body will be received at 1pm and the Vigil at 7pm--with the funeral following on Friday morning. These next two days will both very healing and difficult for all who love Julia---but at least we do it as a community--the Sisters, her family, her former students, and her friends will gather as a community to honor her, to laugh, to cry, and to share our stories. She will be right there with us---keeping us all together and giving us the strength we'll need.

**Quote: I thought the quote above was fitting as I received a little message from Julia to "live in the pause" today--she whispered back her notes to me today.

Picture: A beautiful Atchison Sunset, taken last Friday at Warnock Lake.